Physically I think there are a lot of signs of old age.
Like my achy lower back. A head full of white hair that I've only ever seen a quarter inch of. Like facial lines especially bad in certain light. Like my feet hurting. One pointer finger is aiming left. Sleep is a like drug but I wake up a lot. The bathroom just isn't as simple as it once was.
My dentist congratulated me on how well I've cared for my teeth! What? I've had a lot of dental work. I used to think that was because I didnt take good enough care. Now it shows I've cared very much. And so forth.
Here's the weird thing: I dont believe any of those things are because of old age. Well. The wrinkles and white hair, yes. And that's optional. Almost 1/3 of my hair shedded out. I really had way too much before so it's not terrible but its gross. Hair was everywhere.
When I was younger I was really fit and strong. I never, ever hurt! Even if I hurt myself. The injury was gone in no time.
In my psyche, I still think Im 25. I think I can run and jump as high and do cartwheels. That it isn't the same as before puts me in kind of a denial mode. I honestly do not understand what has changed and I expect it to go back to before. But it doesn't. And I've slowed down. I'm not complaining.
I just have to believe that, yes, I am aging. But I'd still ride a bike 25 (flat) miles if asked. I like fun. And then I'd be really sore. Maybe wondering if I'm dying. And I'll think that it's something wrong with me that shouldn't be and can be fixed.
People are starting to treat me like I'm not there….I get very scared cause Im only 62! What if I live to 100?
My doctors say I'm fine. That actually worries me a little. Every complaint is normal. I have a terrible allergy problem. It makes life difficult and uncomfortable. It's not an “old people thing" yet it got profoundly worse with age.
Bette Davis once said: Old age ain't for no sissies!
Look her up if you dont know her! I'm old and too tired to explain.
Those, I guess are signs.
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